64 Drafts

There are 64 unfinished posts in my draft log.  If this posts makes it past the chopping board in my head, it will be the 41st post on this blog.  What is about me that makes it so damn difficult to follow through with things?  Even in the realm of creativity, which is something I’m supposed to hang my hat on, I am 1.5 times more likely to scrap an idea than actually express it.  I have this whole inverted triangle thing throwing me for loops.  Most creative types are able to churn shit out at a breakneck pace because reason dictates that eventually something will stick.  I have an ass-backwards mentality that confounds me into believing that I can just wait until I get lucky and catch lightning in a bottle.

It sucks.  I suck.

Whether it’s my total lack of belief in myself or the disillusionment of having once foolishly harboring that belief, I’m languishing, drowning in possible ideas that won’t see the light of day.